I committed to studying for MCSA SQL Server 2012 and taking the certification exams by the end of the year…last year. That didn’t happen. At the start of this year, I made that same commitment again. Neither did that happen. At that time, I told myself there’s still a lot of time left to get all my ducks in a row. And before I knew it, the year is almost over.

I’m just frustrated that I can’t get myself to get it done. And that frustration is only a symptom of a bigger frustration.

For the last couple of years, I’ve been struggling with my career. It’s never been easy. I’m just doing fine, but I’m not at a level I want to be. That’s something I have had a hard time saying in public. I just need to get it off my chest, I think.

At the beginning of this year, I was talking to  few friends from the SQL Server Community / SQL Family about the situation I am in and how I just want to break out and have an awesome, rock star career. I’ve got the best of career advisers. But that does not necessarily translate to the best results. I know. I know. It’s about acting on those pieces of advice. I could have done this…I could have done that. I could have. Seriously, I could have.

The only good thing about this is, it’s not yet too late. I know it’s not yet too late.

I just need to go back to the drawing board. And get a fresh start. As the year comes to a close, I feel that I need to just gather myself and break through this proverbial wall.

There’s no getting around it but to make that commitment and do the work…the hard work.